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Oct. 22nd, 2005 @ 05:28 pm (no subject)

Heyz,

i have decided to give all those who have been reading my story a little something that they can read, it is a chapter later on in the story

its a songfic the song it My Last Breath by Evanescence and the chapter consists of flashbacks

hope u like ^_^

Yumi sat down under a tree at school; she placed a pair of earphones in her ears and turned on her Mp3

 

The strange thing about this song it is called ‘My Last Breath’ and is by Evanescence, no it wasn’t the name that was strange it is what the song’s about

 

Yumi listened to it and remembered the little trip she thought she took

 

**Yumi’s P.O.V**

 

(Flashbacks after lyrics, these flashbacks are from all different parts of the story)

 

Hold on to me love
you know I can't stay long
all I wanted to say was I love you and I’m not afraid
can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?

 

Kai put his arms around me as I cried, I don’t know why but every time I think of when I have to leave it makes me cry

 

I think its because I have become such good friends with them all, and leaving would brake my heart

‘Yumi, I have to tell you something’ he said looking into my green eyes

‘What do you have to tell me’ I said trying to pull my eyes from his

‘Yumi this is hard to say, but I want you to know I love you’ his words sounded so true and sincere

‘Kai, you can’t love me, I don’t even belong in this dimension’ I replied pushing away from him and braking eye contact

 

I walked over to a cherry blossom tree placing my hand upon it, I placed pressure upon my hand so I could hang my head and let my tears fall to the ground

 

I could hear him coming up to me, he placed a hand upon my shoulder and brought his lips to my ear

‘I’m not afraid to admit it, because it’s true’

‘But Kai, I wont be hear for long you know that, I could leave at any minute’ I sobbed

 

He rapped me up in is arms, bringing me ever so close

‘I don’t care, I love you and your never going to leave me’ he replied

‘Yumi, I’m sorry but its time to leave’ Eternity said

‘No I wont leave Kai, because I love him too’ I said closing my eyes

‘I’m sorry Yumi’ she replied

‘I wont let her go’ Kai called out

 

He brought me even closer this time; I looked up to see he was looking down at me; we began to drift closer and closer

 

We were now only inches away from each other’s lips; I could already feel his hot breath upon my lips

 

Before our lips could touch I woke up, I wasn’t in my bed at Tyson’s, no I was back home lying in my bed

 

Holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

 

‘Do I like Rei or Kai? Why does this have to be so difficult to answer?’ I questioned my self while placing a pillow over my face as I lay in bed

 

The next day was the same, I couldn’t get the thought of Kai out of my head, and I really did like Rei but for some reason Kai is all I can think about now

 

I held my breath and kept my thoughts to me self as I entered the main room, only to find now one was there

‘Thank god’ I sighed letting the breath escape

 

I’ll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears

 

I have been here for 2 weeks now and frankly I like it here, even if I don’t get along with either Tyson or Kai

 

Sure Tyson is cool at most times, and then there’s the times when he goes crazy for food or snaps at Hillary

 

Well the reason for hating Kai is… um, he can get close and then he pushes you away, yeah that’s my reason

‘Yumi, you coming with us or not?’ Tyson yelled from the front of the dojo

‘I’m coming’ I yelled walking up to them

 

Rei, Maxie, Kenny, Kai, Hillary and Tyson had all decided to take a brake from the whole finding Boris, so we are now on our way to have a picnic

 

                                                  ******

 

‘Yumi, come and join us’ Rei pleaded from the forest, that forest for some reason scared me

‘No, you guys can play, I’ll stay here and watch the stuff’ I called back

‘No your not, your going to play while I watch the stuff’ Kenny said pushing me to the forest

 

Ok so I joined their game of hide and seek, but I didn’t really have a choice after all Tyson black mailed me

 

‘…7…8…9…10 READY OR NOT HERE I COME!’ Tyson yelled

 

He ran through the forest looking high and low, but he couldn’t find the others

 

Tyson was so close to finding me,

‘Oh no, he knows I’m here’ I thought closing my eyes

 

I didn’t want to be caught, I sucked at looking for people and I hated hiding so basically I hated this game

 

‘I know some ones there’ he said getting closer and closer

 

My heart sped up and I shout my eyes closed even harder, and then I felt something or someone pulling me away

 

We finally stopped; still I didn’t wish to open my eyes

‘You know you can open your eyes’ said the cold voice

 

My eyes shot open and there he was, Kai was the one who dragged me away and now had me against a tree

 

I then felt him place a hand upon my shoulder,

‘You ok? You look a bit pale’ he said with concern

 

See now you know why I hate him, he pushes me away and now he wants me close

‘Kai, what is your problem?’ I asked in a low voice

‘What do you mean?’ he asked confused

‘Why do you bring me close to you only to push me away then want me back’ I stated clenching my fists

‘Yumi, I… I don’t know, but it has something to do with you’ he said then paused

‘What do you mean me?’ I questioned with confusion

‘Its just when we are alone I feel as if I could tell you everything, but when the others are around I feel alone and cold’ he said hanging his head

 

I placed a hand on his check and instantly he jumped, I could tell he had been through so much at the Abby, after all he was taught to hate and destroy

 

I moved his head up so I could look into his crimson orbs, I could see no mask over his eyes now, and there in his eyes were sadness and feelings of lonesome

‘Kai, you will never be alone while I’m here’ I said hugging him

 

Hugging him felt so good, but little did I know that Rei was watching us and he was angry with a bit of sadness mixed into it, but he could see there was something there

 

Holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

 

I could feel the darkness spreading across my body, no longer could I hear anything just a cold and lifeless voice at my ears

 

She told me that Tyson and the others aren’t my friends and that my life is worth less

 

And for some reason I believed her, she was right they were never my friends, but that was not true she was brain washing me

 

After a while I started to not listen to the voice, I tried to block her out of my head and it seemed to work

 

In the distance I could hear a faint but familiar voice,

‘Yumi, don’t lisen to the voice, she is telling you lies’ the distant voice called

 

Apparently I was repeating what the voice was saying about my friends,

‘Fight the voice Yumi, I know you can’ the same distant voice said once more

 

I began to fight it and soon I didn’t even hear her,

‘No Yumi, they are lying to you’ was the last nonsense I herd her say before I saw the distant voice was actually Kai’s voice

 

Closing your eyes to disappear
you pray your dreams will leave you here
but still you wake and know the truth
no one's there

 

I looked around my room, was I truly back here or is it a dream

 

The last thing I remembered was I almost kissed Kai before I began to disappear and then woke up here

‘It can’t be, I can’t be back… no’ I screamed with tears falling from my eyes

 

There came a run to my door and in came Des and Tash, their eyes widened at the sight of me

‘You’re a wake’ they screamed in unison

‘What do you mean a wake?’ I questioned while sobbing

 

Tash took a seat next to me,

‘You ad been in a coma for 3 weeks’ she said placing a hand on my shoulder while concern flickered in her eyes

‘Yeah, and you had to wake up on your birthday’ Des added sitting down on my bed as well

‘But how did I get the coma?’ I questioned

 

Both girls looked at each other with confusion,

‘I can answer that question’ said a doctor like man entering my room

‘Your father and a few of my associates had been working on a new vitamin, your father decided to try it out on you before he passed away, so I guess not receiving your daily vitamin reacted some how with your system’ he finished motioning for Tash and Des to leave

 

‘We best let her allow all this to sink in’ he said closing the door

 

I was stunned, I couldn’t move nor could I speak, it was as if I had been frozen but could tell what was happening

 

I then looked at my blade picking it up,

‘Eternity… Eternity, answer me god dam it’ I screamed while tears flowed freely

 

I looked into my mirror, I defiantly back home because everything was the same, and my hair was back to being blond and my eyes were once again hazel

 

I through the purple blade at the mirror, se wouldn’t answer me nor did I like what I saw

‘I’m alone once again, why did I have to leave there? It was my home’ I thought as I sobbed into my pillow

 

Say goodnight
don't be afraid
calling me calling me as you fade to black

 

It’s been a few days since I came back to my dimension; I have been dealing with images of Kai and the other forgetting me

 

I sitting on the ground with them all surrounding me, then I feel vines with thorns start to rap around my body

 

They are all saying stuff about me leaving that I am a loser and no friend, I begin to cry and they all leave except for Kai

 

He looks down at me with disgust, I feel so sad and lifeless he’s even laughing at me

‘Why do you laugh at me Kai’ I asked through sobs

‘Because you are weak and will always be weak’ with those words he turns his back

‘And I think you are such a easy pray, you are such a fool for trusting’ in his hand was my blade

‘I don’t care about that blade, it took you away, it took everyone away from me’ I cried

 

I then wake up covered in sweat; I rub the sweat away and start to cry some more

 

Holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

 

‘Eternity, do you mean to say that were the one who had told Kai about the darkness that was making its way to me?’ I questioned the Angel

‘Yes, but I hoped you to wouldn’t fall for each other’ she said shaking her head

‘What! Me and Kai, no way… never’ I said shaking my head in disgust, but in the back of my mind I knew she was right

‘Fine don’t believe me’ she replied with a chuckle

 

(End of Flashbacks)

 

**Normal P.O.V**

 

Yumi took out the earphones and sighed,

‘I really do miss them, I wish it wasn’t just a dream as others say’ she thought before head off to my next class

 

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